Days are getting better,  90% of everything is having a better attitude.  I get up with a great attituce most days and pray for the best.   The monster inside me is winning sometimes,  I have faith that God with not give me more than I can take.  Not much of support network here,  that's tough.  But, God is there for me and he helps me through.   Hoping to get things right soon.   This is truly the most difficult time in my life,   I need people to confirm forgiveness and it does not come.   I will win,  next week things truly begin to change and I will be finding me.   Knowing that everything I endure is for the lord and him to help me grow.   I can do this,