Days are getting better,  90% of everything is having a better attitude.  I get up with a great attituce most days and pray for the best.   The monster inside me is winning sometimes,  I have faith that God with not give me more than I can take.  Not much of support network here,  that's tough.  But, God is there for me and he helps me through.   Hoping to get things right soon.   This is truly the most difficult time in my life,   I need people to confirm forgiveness and it does not come.   I will win,  next week things truly begin to change and I will be finding me.   Knowing that everything I endure is for the lord and him to help me grow.   I can do this,  

This is a day

I have peace knowing that the Lord loves me each and everyday.  I am going to have my own pity party until I feel like I am done.   Then, I am gonna be mad and work on my life.  Tomorrow is another day that I will begin with a new attitude.   I Love my friends that really love me and you know who you are. 

First Blog

I have been going through a really rough time in my life.  Not knowing who I am and if I am worthy.  I can across a blog today that really spoke to me and gave me reason to move on. Philippians 3:12-14, "I do not mean that I am already as God wants me to be. I have not yet reached that goal, but I continue trying to reach it and to make it mine. Christ wants me to do that, which is the reason he made me his.  Brothers and sisters, I know that I have not yet reached that goal, but there is one thing I always do. Forgetting the past and straining toward what is ahead, I keep trying to reach the goal and get the prize for which God called me through Christ to the life above."  I realize that God is still working on me.  

Satans playground in my(our) minds, and I know that with continued support I can keep getting better.  

Thank you Mr House you blog was an inspiration.